Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Am I up to the challenge?

What can I challenge myself to this week?  That is the question that I have been pondering over that last few weeks.  Lately I have been really looking within myself critically and being honest with my progression.  And what the woman in the mirror has been telling me is that I have not been challenging myself enough to anything as of late.  I have been allowing myself to slip into mediocrity.  Just running on the hamster wheel of life day in and day out and not experiencing life in a way that my Spirit is aching to live.  My solution to this is to begin by asking the question : "What can I challenge myself to this week" in hopes of finding life satisfaction.  

By broadening my scope and interest as well as correcting character deficiencies and doing the things that I have always wanted to do but to afraid to do them or lacked the discipline to follow through with, I believe that I can bring my life full circle. 

So here is what I have so far........

Paint-  I've had this huge canvas for the longest that is begging for me to fill it.  To be honest, the size intimidates me and I am no painter by any definition of the word.  But really, what does that matter?  Who is going to come up behind me and tell me that I lack proper technique or skill?  Art really is up to interpretation right?

Telling my Ego to take a hike- I read somewhere that fear of failure is really just the Ego running rampant.  By being so scared to fail that you never even try, you are really saying that your Ego is too large to see failure as a learning lesson.  We are all great, talented in one way or another and capable of reaching success.  

Positive thinking-  I work in a typical office environment with some of the biggest complainers ever to enter my sphere.  At times it is difficult to remain happy, positive and purposeful when surrounded by individuals who are not in the same frame of mind as me.  My challenge is to block those individuals out with positive affirmations, music, or just by speaking up and changing the tone of the conversation to a positive one. 

Drinking ample amounts of H2O-  Don't get me wrong all I ever drink is water but sometimes it isn't the daily recommended amount.  

To clean my closet (literally and figuratively)- Well for the most part my physical closet is pretty organized.  I did much of that last week. As far as the other closet...well that one still needs a bit of work.

I am going to keep this list at the forefront of my mind this week and continue to build on what I have here.  Life is a classroom and there is always room for learning, challenges, and teaching.  

Friday, October 14, 2011

Lybra Scales



"An artist must be free to choose what he does, certainly, but he must also do what he may choose." --Langston Hughes



This is my voyage to balance.  Last year I decided to take a stab at the whole blogging thing but, I was quite unsuccessful at it.  Mostly because I had absolutely no direction, no focus, and no purpose.  My problem, quite honestly, was the lack of confidence in myself.  When I look back at all the half finished projects on my art table, the incomplete thoughts in my personal journal, I see that the source of it all is lack of belief in myself.

Exactly a week ago I turned 24.  To many it may sound crazy but, as I was approaching my birthday I began to seriously panic.  I was going through a quarter life crises.  Have you ever heard people say that after you get out of high school and begin passing those age mile stones (16,18,21) that the time begins to fly by?  Well let me tell you, that is so true.

For the past year or so I have been really looking critically at who I am. My desire to figure out who I AM outside of my friendships, relationship, and the perceptions others have conjured up for me.  The journey that I am going through hasn't been easy.  It seems that the more that I learn about myself, life, and the state of the world in general, the more I realize that I need to learn more because I know nothing at all.

During the course of this inward reflection I began to see that I haven't been living up to my true potential.  In late 2008 I moved from the DMV to South Florida.  It was a true culture shock for me.  Over time I have adjusted and learned much about who I am and what I am made of.  On the one hand, there are many things for me to stand tall in pride about.  But on the other hand, I see how life has passed me by; or rather I have allowed life to pass me by.  In my opinion, the mindset of many here is to breeze through life on a permanent vacation. Without knowing it I became locked into the same mindset and didn't know how to change my energy.

After many motivating conversations with those in my life who care about me, and a recent near death experience, I decided that it is time to take back control of my life.  No more excuses! There is no time like the present.  In all actuality present really is the only time that exist.

SO WHO AM I???

My name is Lybra.  I am a lover of life, fresh produce, tea, natural hair, and music.
Whenever the creative bug bites I make handmade jewelry.
I am a bookworm and love getting lost in a good book.
I'll talk life, politics, food, and fashion with just about anyone.
Vegetarian and proud!
I'm wouldn't call myself a poet but I am a true lover of beautifully strung words and I string a few together myself from time to time.
Make me laugh and will can be buddies for life.
And everyday I love true myself a tad bit more.

This place I am hoping will be a creative mash-up all that I am.